Don’t Cry Over Spilled Pizza

That’s how the saying goes, right?

Last night I caved in. I was tired from my first day of classes and an afternoon of four-year-olds, and didn’t feel like cooking. I simply wanted to watch another episode of Call The Midwife, and eat pizza. So that’s what I did.

Afterwards, I felt terrible.

I sat at the kitchen table and cried over the fact that I had just consumed four delicious, cheese and mushroom filled pieces of pizza. I must also mention that only a few minutes before eating the pizza, I was also locked out of the online test I had to take and got an automatic zero. Test on the first day of class? What? Oh, yes.

BUT: today is a brand new day. And I’ve learned a bit from this pizza fiasco.

  1.  The past four days have been difficult – two liquid meals and one solid meal a day is just as bad as it sounds, and it has been getting harder and harder to consume liquid vegetables. However, I have to remind myself that I am not alone. I bet there are a lot of people on the Clean diet that snuck in a piece four pieces of pizza. This is so important for me to remember, because I like to do things all on my own. I have never liked group projects- the pressure of relying on other people is overwhelming. I have a hard time asking for help, which most likely explains my inability to do mental math, word problems, and long division. Even during this cleanse, I can rally support from those around me, and I must remember that in my darkest pizza-craving hour.
  2. Not everything is going to be perfect. Last night Caleb called me a Perfectionist. Me? A Perfectionist? Yes. Just writing this small post has taken me almost the whole day. Over Christmas break my mother-in-law said to me, “if you can’t do the best, do the best that you can.” If my body cannot handle two liquid meals in a day, I can still stick to the Clean food list, and eat four pieces of delicious venison steak.
  3. Pizza is a wonderful, wonderful thing. I cannot wait to eat more after the cleanse.

As I type, a Wendy’s burger commercial is playing on Spotify.

I WAS LISTENING TO BON IVER, SPOTIFY. How rude.

Nonetheless, it has been a fantastic week so far. I’m excited to take more classes that actually have to do with my major (Early Childhood Education), and next week I start Field Experience! Yay! I am most excited to wear all of my new “teacher clothes” that I got for Christmas. Thanks, mom!

-Kelly

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2 thoughts on “Don’t Cry Over Spilled Pizza

  1. There has to be a better way! Does it have to be so drastic? Can’t we have our cleanse and eat our pizza too? Let me know what you discover.

  2. I don’t think so. I’m certainly learning self control, and I really feel like I need to go through with it (without the pizza) for the next two weeks! It’s only two more weeks of my life! After that I can eat regular foods again, but I feel like if I can’t learn to have some discipline in my eating, I’ll just go back to feeling like I did before.

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